Thursday, September 3, 2015
I GIRL SCOUT PROMISE, I DO NOT LOOK LIKE THIS WHILE WRITING...LOL.
I don't know about you, but if I had a dime for how many script flipping treacherous people I have ran across, I would be on a private island somewhere sipping tea with Kermit The Frog and his new muppet girlfriend.
I reconnected with an old friend after what we called a "group" friendship imploded. I was very happy to see the friend and had swept a lot of mess under the rug. I guess the friend would be remiss, if they didn't mention that another friend in the circle thought I was "Bat $H!t Crazy". If you ask me about my crazy, I will often laugh and tell you I am down right certifiable, but coming from this source, the audacity really cooked my sauce.
I removed a lot of judgement to even associate with this female as she was a friend of a friend. (You know how that goes). This is a female who is a single mother of a son who curses, is disobedient as hell, all over the place, and gets the pleasure of hearing his Mother curse and pollute his brain with how messed up his Daddy is. This is the same female who couldn't hold it together and put her child first at HIS birthday party because she wanted to pop off at his Daddy. Now Pause --- I have sat at a birthday party for my son with his father AND THE WOMAN HE CHEATED ON ME WITH on top of abandoning his son when he was fighting for his life in ICU for this woman. As a woman and an unselfish Mother, I kept my peace and my focus was on my son. A real woman puts her child first, but HEY -- I didn't judge you.
Too many times this scatterbrained broad proved that she "Aint My Type of Hype" yet still received the benefit of my own benevolence when her own friends were calling her crazy behind her back. I supported her business ventures, I visited her, and when her closest friend was trashing her for filth and hell bent on leaving her out of events, I remained impartial and fair. What pisses me off about people and especially this chick is the fact that her life is a complete shamble, but she feels she is majorly qualified to talk about me. So let's run this down on paper:
- She has no man and is quick to get the liquor in her system and go full out hoe at a moment's notice
- She decides to start a business but got shirts with the letters peeling off and not even a business card
- She constantly is being taken care of by her friends but never seems to have the capacity to return it
- She has zero business savvy, common sense, and didn't even have $10 to support her OWN friend's performance at FSO (yeah, I paid for her entry).
Her last act of foolishness was calling me over a situation where she knows one side of the story from another LIAR. This was a business situation that she had no involvement and no information with. Peep her decision making...She is in the car on the way to take one of our friends to IDENTIFY THE BODY OF HIS LOVED ONE THAT HAS PASSED AWAY. While she is on the phone, I have no idea that this has transpired, but she chooses to argue about small stuff to which she has no credible information about. When I find out hours later that my dear friend had died, I cannot lie - I was ready to rip her head from her body and drop kick it over the nearest goal post. Who does that?
Of course at no point in time does she admit any wrong doing and for a long time I knew if I laid eyes on her I'd probably catch a charge. After a lot of soul searching, I decided to forgive for me and although I hadn't done this heffa harm, I took accountability and apologized for the part I played in our arguments. I picked up the phone like a WOMAN and called. I got voicemail and left a message. Again, this tacky heffa responds with a TEXT MESSAGE: "I got your message and if I have done anything to hurt you, I apologize." -- IF YOU HAVE DONE ANYTHING? Okay girl.
Currently, she is sitting under the tailbone of the female who did her best to poison people's mind about her, criticized her parenting (instead of helping her), and planted seeds that she was a crazy liar who attacks people with knives and then lies about the fact that she was physically abused. Additionally, this is the same chick that when a NEW chick came into the fold, she took up with her and they both dogged you and talked about you...but hey - You're a GREAT judge of character right?
So, in short, I spilled this story and came at it just as if we were sitting together in my living room sipping on tea or wine. It is important that you really size up your detractors and determine if they are even qualified to enter in an opinion on you. Do not let someone visibly broken try to size you up for chinks in your armor. All I know is I don't need grown men to take care of me, cook for me, care for my child, and do my hair. The same grown men that you didn't hang with at all when there was a rift in the group, but when the paradigm shifted and you found yourself OUT, you were over their house EVERYDAY. Now that one of them needs you - you are nowhere to be found. Big surprise. (Not really).
So babes, I will continue on my BAT $hit crazy journey with my HUSBAND (that you don't have), my HOUSE (that you don't have and can't afford), Friends (that don't tell my business to anyone who listens and peppers it with judgement), my business (that I have ran for years while you can't even get a decent shirt made where the letters don't peel off), and my independence. I can do my own hair, makeup, care for my kids, register my business, make business cards, and draw up proposals while you remain clueless about everything around you. My children will grow knowing they have an unselfish Mother who knows how to put them first and compose herself. People think your son is cute as a button, but BAD AS HELL. The poor baby is just a reflection of his BAT $H!T crazy and clueless MOTHER. ...but wait...I'm the crazy one? I guess girl.
**My loves, sometimes you can't sugar coat it. Sometimes it is not about the diplomatic and politically correct way to say things. These are real situations that happen to real people and while I can give a scholarly and positive dissertation on the trials of life, sometimes I just have to bring it down to the level and say - I suffer just like you. I more than likely have the same passing thoughts you do. I do not always handle things perfectly at it's inception, but I am introspective, and if it means enough, I will attempt to recover the situation.
In short -- some people are ignorant and you are well within your right to say.."I forgive you, but F* you...sincerely."**
WHAT ABOUT YO FRIEEEEEENDS....Sing it TLC.
Wednesday, September 2, 2015
Tuesday, September 1, 2015
Open Spoken Letter to Missy Elliott
Dear Miss E,
A lot of rappers come and go
but they all seem to miss me
They don’t touch me, you feel me?
They don’t feel me,
these 5 senses sense the fact that mute desires
disallow me to speak you
Do the math class
Missy came out greater than, the common man
and to this day NO EQUAL
No prequels or sequels, she stands alone as Mr. Holland’s Opus
out of my boombox speaker, the dopeness
sits on her vocal chords with double dutch as the focus
with the same turn of phrase around the way girls turn rope with
Miss E is every element that makes up WHOA.
All you gotta say is Missy Elliott. GO!
and she’ll sum up everything you know
in a sum of all flows, legendary, classic, and soon to be
She raps on 5 MICS EVERY SINGLE NIGHT WE
SALUTE YOU MISSY.
Word is bond you speak the gospel
and those who seek the real are your people
Sitting on the Summit of the Church’s Steeple
the higher power, hits you with the highest of fives to tag you in
clue you in, on this world we live in
blood of the holy ghost fills your pen
as your BIC serves as a lit wick
a live grenade with a pulled Clip
Writing on the wall and Egypt’s hieroglyph
She’s one of the wonders of the world
Wonder Woman who inspired the Beautiful minds of Wonderful girls
9th & Stevie Wonder how this self made pearl
Transformed from a grain of sand
Out of captivity, busted open the clam
Decided not to sink, she cemented the sand
in order to stand on the world’s greatest stage
just to talk to the players
Miss E. The lyrical Soothsayer
Missy the walking dead & Vampire slayer
Has always been brilliant in the light
Simultaneously a day walker and Queen of the night
She is something special to behold
Earned her stripes she too sings America
She does it for all our Langston “Hues”
She’s Harlem Renaissance and Miss Ceily Blues
She’s The Color Purple and a Royal Point of View
The Princess Di of our hip hop
The lucky 7 on the di the hip hop
She’s Brown Suga on the corner that we cop
new and old hip hop spinning on a cardboard box
in the borough of Brooklyn
She’s the clash of two titans out of the borough of Brooklyn
she’s Juicy and reasonable doubt
she’s ETHER and No DOUBT
and I’ll rock with that all day long
She’s Semper Fidelis and Army strong
she’s air force fly, and Cool water gone
She’s not just the General, but the whole damn Navy
She’s the biscuit, the sop, and of course the gravy
she’s a sophisticated complex FIRST lady
with a head of state’s mind
She’s Misdemeanor of the most notorious kind
but can’t be defined by the masses
Mista soul and blackberry molasses
Heatwave, Spinner, and Adidas Classic
She’s a beast, call her REX JURASSIC
and although her arms are too short to box with OZ
she and the higher power are never at odds
she’s the lullaby that rocked baby girl’s boat
before she sent back to GOD
with the flysheet pair of wings any angel has ever seen
Mountain High, and River Deep
She’s the wake up in yo cut, Janet Jack’s NO SLEEP
Misdemeanor turns to Miss Tina, turning turntables that turns out arenas
Missy, Missed her, leaner
Misty Mr. Meaner
Misty Blue Steamer
This is my ode
to the Don Diva.
Tuesday, August 18, 2015
Wednesday, June 24, 2015
If you are curious about what makes me...me. Here are two key things you need to know:Continue Reading→
I am a Libra
I am an Empath
I fit these descriptions to almost an absolute bullseye. I've known all my life that these factors made me stick out and so my expectation never was to FIT IN.
Thank you http://www.elephantjournal.com/2015/05/loving-understanding-an-empath/ for this insight as this is who I am to the core. Perhaps people who KNOW OF me and/or KNOW me can gain a little more perspective on what goes on inside me.
|The people born under the Sign Libra are kind, gentle and lovers of beauty, harmony and peace. However, in their effort to keep everyone happy, they find it difficult to say ‘NO’ to anyone, and as a result, they end up getting stressed.|
The Libra-born natives are experts at getting things done, but they cannot be called cunning. They are too good to exploit the emotions of other people.
RomanticTheir ruling planet is Venus, and they are extremely romantic people. Whatever they do in life is driven by the feelings of love.
CharmingThey have a very pleasing manner of talking and also choose pleasant subjects to talk about, which makes people feel happy in their company.
JustThey have a strong sense of justice and fair play. They may skilfully find their way out, but they will never resort to cunning methods to get what they want.
DiplomaticThey are well-known for their diplomatic skills and have the ability to listen to differing points of view with a great deal of patience.
The Scales, though mostly energetic, can sometimes be lazy and may tend to take things easy. It is not physical laziness, but they wish to avoid any kind of stress or emotional challenges.
One of the most difficult things for a Libra is to take a decision. When faced with a choice, it is very tough for them to select what is best for them, which can become a big hurdle in their path.
Because they have a strong desire for material comforts, they may tend to waste a lot of money in unnecessary luxuries.
DetachedPeople born under the Zodiac Sign Libra are firm and strong, but they can also be detached and pretend to be pleasant sometimes as they don’t wish to displease anyone.