Friday, October 19, 2012

Public Confessions - Lessons of an Empty Rambler

As you have seen in the recent video, I showcased the poem that you have been hearing in the intro.  Here are the words.

Public Confessions - Lessons of an empty Rambler

I was on a quest for titles,  drug my soul through shallow substance just to be dope
I wanted to be the poet who wrote the ish you wish you wrote
Woke up every morning at dawn and through my yawning asked have I arrived yet
While the powers that be laughed and said....NOPE

Couldn't undersand why when I had a pen in my hand it did WANDEROUS THINGS
Like a supernatural being I magically willed words to me
Wordplay was my play ground swing swag easy
I wrote monkey bars...bananas...Crazy
Yet even though this is the way the higher power made me
no one saw me and decided to make me famous
no one saw me and decided to make me wealthy

I waited for my ship to come in lookng past the arc
arrow in my bullseye stubborn and missing my mark
I was blinded by the world and deaf to the word
A judas chasing silver, a fool wanting gold
I almost sold my soul for a little bling bling, the lex coups the beamer and a benz
selling out and surrounded by friends, that were clearly enemies
but the biggest enemy was the me in me, see I was standing in my own way

My ammunition is intuition the higher power blessed me to rise above and feel the
things that most people miss
My lungs breath in the atmosphere and the storms of those around me
touched by a sinners soul and a heart of Gold, I can regurgitate and spit HEALING
Yet, I thought worldly things would heal me

So while I got on the mic thinking my outfit and words were right to get you open
I was coming to you broken
searching for your validation snapping clapping ready to call me the dopeness
when you came here hoping someone understood your position.

I realized I was the rogue one, abandoning her mission
skipping down a yellow brick road to hell paved with good intentions
I didn't seek out OZ...I wanted to be HIM.
A hero to marvel at Your OOOH and AHHS, I needed to hear em
so driven on gassing myself I couldn't hear HIM

All this time I was spitting when I should have been...delivering.
I'm an air and open and so my transparency in my testimony is potent
I walked through fire shrouded in my gift of grace with not a boil or blemish on my face
Because I was covered
I understand now that how we understand and connect with each other is without barriers and walls
I tried to rise and continued to fall because I didn't answer my call
My poetic powers lacked focus and until I tapped into the will of the higher power
it also lacked purpose

I endured abuse - domestic
I have been arrested
had my world taken
and restored again
so one night I tossed my pen
and wrote with the blood of my hands
no longer clenched in defiance
Now pass me the mic...because I am wounded and open
No longer an addict to the dopeness
don't care if you wished you wrote this
I understand that I was given talents to be a servant
It was never about me...
I was sent here for you
It took me to be crucified a thousand times to now be still
and contemplate what would Jesus do
I am one who has been burnt by the flames of my flagrance my arrogance
had the aroma of STANK
and I will admit that to you
No longer the self absorbed spitter
but a deliverer of my testimony to  you
Thank God for his plan and forgiveness
enlightened ...I can now shine - on You.

No longer the short sided snake eyed gambler
I've learned my lesson
a former empty rambler
I no longer hope for the dopeness
because my word is his will...filled with substance
Public confessions
Lessons of an empty rambler
Died to be live
but now resurrected
walking in his mercy, understanding my duty
to ensure that you and I remain connected
I confess
so fresh and so clean hot mess
wanting to be the best and didn't give my best
until I was refreshed by the water
and I aint felt this way in years
So if anything I say moves me to tears in the middle
throughout and towards the end
understand it's me understanding the gift within
It's not about's about you
I am supposed to come to you uncovered and let my testimony shine through
Which is why I continued to be tested and failed until
I allowed HIM to work and pass through me
No longer a black jack of all trades gambler
no longer an empty rambler
I confess
I was blessed
to offer kind words and blessings to you
it was never about me
it was always about you
So I plant and sow seeds of me
cry over them freely
shine on them unselfishly
so you and me - can harvest

I confess
until I understood how I was blessed
I was a mess
an empty rambling addict for the dopeness
Wishing I couldve wrote this a long time ago
Ignorant to my calling but now I know
Before you hair grown back in strengh and wisdom
after being my on cancer
The call I have answered

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Birthday Makeup Look: Creased To The Gawds!!

Of course there is no one that was going to turn it out and slay like Parrish. I loved this makeup look!
The video is below:

Now The Details!

Face Moisturizer:  Benefit Moisture Cream
Primer: Nars Oil Free Primer
Foundation:  Nars Cadiz
Foundation Set: Makeup Forever Duo Mat Powder in 214
Concealer: Amazing Cosmetics in Dark Tan
Set Concealer: Tarte Translucent 
Lashes: Sephora Brand "Mink" (Two Pair)
Highlight: Laura Mercier Mosaic Shimmer Bloc

Eye Primer: Urban Decay Primer Potion
Lid: Laura Mercier Butter Cream
Crease: Makeup Forever #4
Liner: Clinique Gel in True Black (Top Liner) and Makeup Forever Aqua Eyes Pencil in 0L (Bottom Water Line)
Illuminator: Nars Silver Factory (this can only be purchased in a limited edition kit)
Cheek Blush: Nars Desire

Lip Liner: Smashbox Lip Pencil in Dark
Lipstick: Kat Von D Celebutard
Lipgloss: Nars Chihuahua 

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Thursday, August 23, 2012

Makeup Forever Eyeshadow Wishlist

I confess:

I was a lover of all things sparkly.  I was attracted to the razzle dazzle shadows!  Oh yes - MEEE!  However, it wasn't until Parrish began to do my face that I saw how beautifully matte shadows are applied.  I ended up becoming a fast fan of Makeup Forever shadows and just all things Makeup forever.

At $20 bucks a pop...Errrr a sista need a hope, a dream and a list!!!!!

So I consulted the internet and saw that MakeupGeek graciously offered the Top 10 eyeshadows for Makeup forever.  This gave me an idea to ask Parrish what are the Top 10 must have in her opinion.

What I will offer is the first Top 10 divised from Parrish.  A lot of her selections are in agreement with MakeupGeek with some differences. 

I will give you 25 in all that I have compiled as a wishlist.  That's $500!!!!

I will share with you how I plan towards purchases because I am not dropping half a stack on some eyeshadows. 

Tip #1:  You can get all 20 as a MUFE shadows as a Backstage Pro for $300.  That's the 40% discount.

Tip #2:  I buy 2 a month.  At 2 a month ($40) it will take a little over the year to accumulate all the shadows at $500.  If I end up obtaining a Backstage Pro card because I am a Freelancer it will take about 7.5 months.

Plan your work and work your plan!

Last thing, I have Sugar Pill palettes.  I do plan to buy at least one of the shadows and compare them.  The Matte Shadows look a lot a like and I am curious if my observation is correct:

Top 10 - According to Parrish

  1. 169 - Iridescent Anthracite
  2. 4 - Black
  3. 75 - Neon Pink (this can serve as blush, gloss, or shadow)
  4. 122 - Metallic Copper
  5. 306 - Peachy Tan with Gold Shimmer
  6. 162 - Matte True Brown
  7. 156 - Matte Flesh
  8. 5 - Coral
  9. 83 - Turquoise Shimmer
  10. 69 - Matte Light Apricot Orange
Remaining 15 According to What I like and What has been used in Makeup Looks

9 - Vibrant Matte Lavender
92 - Matte Brilliant Purple
158 - Matte Cold Red
159 - Vivid Blue
153 - Soft Peachy Orange
10 - True Golden Yellow
39 - Plum
71 - Matte Sunflower
18 - Tangerine
99 - Scarlet
47 - Olive Green
166 - Matte Espresso
171 - Iridescent Acid Green
310 - Diamond Green
49 - Deep Plum Wine

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Makeup Look: Keepin' It Kardashian

Alright guys,

This look is not to LOOK like Kim Kardashian. She is beautiful and while I am cute in my own right, but I can't manage to look like the Armenian Goddess.

Skin Care:

Moisturizer: Korres Wild Rose


Prep: Laura Mercier Radiance Primer
Foundation: Nars Sheer Glow Foundation Cadiz

Powder: Makeup Forever Duo Mat: 214

Blush: Sculpting Blush 08 (Makeup Forever)
Contour: Makeup Forever Concealer Palette
Highlight: Makeup Forever Uplight and Laura Mercier Golden Mosaic Bloc

Eye Primer: Urban Decay Primer Potion
Lid: Makeup Forever Eyeshadows - #17 and #40 Urban Decay Sin

Brow: Anastasia Brunette
Liner: Two Faced 3 way Lash Line tool to Tight Line and True Black Cream

Lip: Chelsea Girls (Nars)
Gloss: Nars Angelica and Sephora Clear Gloss
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Saturday, August 18, 2012

Makeup Look: Sunset TropiGal


Moisturizer: Benefit Moisture Cream


Foundation: Nars Sheer Glow Cadiz

Powder: Makeup Forever Duo Mat: 214

Blush: Nars Exhibit A
Contour: Nars Exhibit A

Eye Primer: Two Faced Shadow Insurance
Lid: Makeup Forever Eyeshadows - #71 #18 #99
Crease: Sephora red wine #31
Corner: #31
Glitters: Makeup Forever Diamond Powder #4 and #2. Makeup Forever Glitter #7
Two Faced Glitter Glue

Highlight: Concealer (HD 350 Makeup Forever)

Brow: Anastasia Medium Ash Brow Wiz
Liner: Two Faced 3 way Lash Line tool to Tight Line
Mascara: Smoky Lash
Lashes: Makeup Forever #31

Lip Liner: Smashbox Dark
Lip: Kat Von D Celebutard
Gloss: Tarina Tarintino Paiette
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Tuesday, August 14, 2012

MakeUp Look: LisaRaye Inspired "Keisha Green"

I love to be creative so Parrish allowed me to name the looks that she creates, which to me is a match made in heaven.  I can't say enough how much I love Parrish.

Without further adieu, here is the look:  PARRISH PERFECTED

Cleanser: Cetaphil Daily Facial Cleanser
Moisturizer: Benefit Moisture Cream


Prep: Laura Mercier Radiance Primer
Foundation: UD Naked Skin Liquid Makeup 8.0 <--- This is not a favorite foundation of mine. I felt a little like a sweet potato after time passed

Powder: Makeup Forever Duo Mat: 214
Bronzer: Makeup Forever Duo Mat: 218

Blush: Nars Mata Hari
Contour: Makeup Forever Duo Mat: 218

Eye Primer: Two Faced Shadow Insurance
Lid: Makeup Forever Eyeshadows - #166 and #310
Corner: Makeup Forever Eyeshadows - #47 and #171

Brow: Anastasia Medium Ash Brow Wiz
Liner: Two Faced 3 way Lash Line tool to Tight Line

Lip: Kat Von D Celebutard
Gloss: Turkish Delight

What is tightlining?

Tightlinig is an eye lining technique where eyeliner is applied into the lash line and in the area where the eyelid becomes the eye. The trick to a perfect tightline is to darken the lash line without getting liner in the 'wetline" where the eye membrane starts. The benefit is that it emphasizes the eyes without looking overly made up because it darkens the lash line. You can tightline on either the upper or lower lid or both and you can use eyeliner like you normally would along with your tightliner.

How Do You Do It?

To tightline the eye, apply the eyeliner right to the lash line. Gently pull your eyelid to expose the lash line (pull down on the lower lashes, up on the upper lashes). Apply liner into the lash line and just inside the eyelash line. You can push the liner down into the lash line or make tiny dots between the lashes. Work in the tiny area between the lashes and the eye membrane (the wet area). I know many people do "wetline" (apply eyeliner to the moist eye membrane), but this is not a good practice. It could irritate your eyes - if you get some on that area blot it off with a Q-tip. .
Always apply your tightliners before any other eye makeup, otherwise it will smudge when you tug on your eyelids.
You can tightline on either the upper or lower lid or both. If you want you can also use eyeliner like you normally would along with your tightliner.
The 2 keys to getting a perfect tightline are practice and the right product.

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Wednesday, August 8, 2012

Vote Jam Poet as Hottest Spoken Word/Poetry

Jam Poet has been nominated as one of the Hottest Spoken Word/Poets in Atlanta!!!

Thank you for the nominations!!

Please submit your vote so that we can celebrate what everyone is already talking about ---

Jam Poet as Hottest Spoken Word/Poet in Atlanta

Please submit your votes here!!!

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Saturday, July 28, 2012

Celebration: Bless My Hands, Head, and My Heart.

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My Daily Devotional - Inspiration "He Still Loves Me"

I think I listened to this song 10 times today.  I was still the first five times, I cried, and I prayed.

Understand, I am not sad.  I am connecting and cleansing.

***No copyright infringement intended. This is for the purpose of inspiration and entertainment***
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I Was Fired!!! Blood, Sweat, & Tears

My blood my sweat and my tears
Painted the corporate walls when my boss fired me
Executed me as If I didn't  matter
Sacrifice and brain matter spattered on his white collar and blue tie
See when they hired me
They didn't want a higher me
They wanted me to
Take pick be one of the Zeros in my paycheck and act beneath thee
Stick my talents in my pocket iron out my grammar and eat the
Political ish everyone is full of

Brothers and sisters I feel your pain we punch clocks to be in a workforce with people we want to punch and clock  just the same

Filter our personalities while we sneak statuses on Facebook and tweet desk pics of our Bordem (naang)

Feeling like Eddie Cain replaced by Flash it's lonely at the top
But everybody on me is what drug me to the bottom

The day I was fired my face wrinkled with the irony from the words they chose to fire me.

Poor performance.

Was it the app I put on my iPhone to check my work email 24-7 my family background noise while trying to fill my bosses competence void poor performance

Or perhaps the ideas that drove production put dollars back in the budget poor performance? What about being sick but willing myself to still make it to work poor performance. Mr boss man please explain it because all the winnings and innings I batted for the home team you claimed it my
stats don't say it but we both know you went about it wrong

Or maybe I did

Maybe poor performance means I didn't play the role act  my part
Perhaps my employee handbook should have come with a sag card because you wanted me to water down my abilities so in less intimidating

Everyday my intelligence and fortitude emasculated you
undressed you
and exposed you so everyone could see your punk ass

And I did this with class and a polish with such brilliant swag dressed for success so good I was bad
Stupid sick with it famously quick witted
So Poor performance next to my name is an oxymoron
And you are obviously a moron because my biggie made you small
Notoriously me b.i.g black intelligent girl baby baby
Round the way girl well rehearsed my bamboo earrings in my purse because I wouldn't dare wear two pair at work

My children thank you
For your homicide of the corporate me
Returning me to my family reborn domestically
Freakishly ambitious as my Husband and me his misses have threesomes with my hustle the mistress

I had to get past the aftermath of dying in the eyes of judas
It wasn't enough I had fallen on the sword countless times and That my DNA was in his bottom line

My boss we'll call him Bill put a bullet in the head of the bride.
Walked me out the front door a new age Beatrix kiddeux

With fleeting thoughts of going postal... Just thoughts though
Take your hands off your cellphones in not crazy
Just another victim of shady
Corporate murder

He fired me
After I spent tireless hours sacrificing work life balance and sanity
When they hired me they didn't want a hire me
Poor performance
No Oscar no tony
Just a nomination for the unemployment line
His intelligence couldn't match mine and instead of focusing on his career he put match to mine
Giving me no choice but to let it burn
Brother and sisters I learned for our sanitys for our health we must work hard for our self
We will build someone else's wealth for a fraction of a fraction to keep to ourself

I offer you a brighter me
Enlightened and lighter me
Burned at the stake of my company
A testimony of being fired
Burnt me like a Salem witch
After all I've done
Ain't this a b***!
But the lesson I learned priceless
Like a Phoenix I fly above the murderous masses
No shame on these wings shakin off the ashes
Cheers to you lift your glasses
Pour some out slow
Blackberry molasses
For those who've lost in this same struggle
To break me
They tried
Attempted homicide
Negligent hit and run
Then hide
Double jeopardize how I live my life
His cockiness
Rocked me dead between the eyes
Like I never mattered
Brain matter on his white collar and blue tie
Bruised my ego
Wounded my pride
But much to their surprise
My dreams still alive
There's no damn business in this world I'll have be my life line
Pumpin me like an iv bs they tried to feed me
I be the the boss of this hear baby
Yes I'm gone eat my cornbread
The mashed potatoes the chicken and the gravy
Train me but don't think you'll run a train on me
Drain me then blame me
For why you gotta tke me into an alley with your arm around me
Shoot me un suspeexpecting
Or when in not looking
Isaid I too sing America
While you sing soprano
Caged bird blown her coop
Didn't cluck out though
No I mean clock out
So I'll charge that to your game
Snake eyes on your loaded dice
Lies on your website
My name may never be on you payroll or any of your buildings
But my blood sweat and tears paint your walls
DNA in your bottom line and on your hands
You'll reap the seeds of your grime
And that company will forever feel me
A cold case
Of blood sweat and tears
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